Becoming a Writer

When I look at the path I've tread, I sometimes wonder, when did I become a writer?  The answer is simple, when I got my first job writing professionally.  By professionally, I mean when I was paid for my time, talent, and skill.  The road to that moment was long.  It began pounding out drafts of a story I ultimately decided wasn't worth pursuing on an old typewriter.  A black Underwood typewriter.  Some of my readers many never seen such a thing, having never known a time before word processing.  Believe me, it is an experience you should have because it helps you cope in those dark moments when Word eats your document.  It helps because you know that if you have used a typewriter and the draft had burned or was destroyed you'd have no recourse.  With Word, you can at least auto save.  But I digress.

I kept a journal in those days too.  One which I maintain until life got so hectic I stopped writing personally for awhile.  All of the work was training for the writer of the future.  During that time I was experimenting with language and formats.  The one thing I didn't do but should have was read a lot too.

Read for a writer is as important as writing because by reading you learn from others.  You see how the masters of your craft handled a certain scene, what description they used, what dialogue, if any, helped to convey their intent.

For the longest time I read as little as possible.  I suppose that's because I was busy with school.  I purchased books but I didn't read them.  That came later.

Then came college and graduate school and I learned much about putting together nouns and verbs and adjectives.  About varying sentence structure and paragraph development and thesis.  These are the basics of expository writing -- essay writing -- that is the cornerstone of freshman English.  At that time, it is a good idea to practice the principles in Elements of Style because ultimately it will reward you later.  Here again I was a late believer because even though I had an interest in writing I wasn't sure I would do it professionally.

Later in college I studied poetry writing and fiction writing.  And then in graduate school technical writing.  My goal here was to understand the similarities and differences among all these forms of written communication.  It took a lot of time after that to sort it all out in my head.  I had to burn out and retrain myself to do it (don't do that at home -- remember, I'm a professional ;) )

The retraining period was practically brutal because I was expected to put words on the page (or the screen) even though nothing came to me.  What saved me?  Reading books.  First I read books on writing.  That got me thinking.  Then I read non-fiction for a bit, histories mostly, and then fiction.

And I'm still doing all these things and writing too to keep my skills sharp and ready for action.  So if anyone out there is interested in becoming a writer, you better be prepared to read a lot and write a lot and check your ego at the door.  Comments you will receive are on the writing, not on you.

Which is Worse?

I met with my intellectual property lawyer to go over the publishing agreement I received.  After an hour of discussion, I went home and I wrote to the publisher with a list of items that I believe need clarification or adding to the agreement.  I am now waiting to hear back.  If the publisher agrees to these changes, I will sign the agreement.  If not, I go back to life before I got the agreement.

Yes Virginia, even though I've been pining for an agreement like this one, I am prepared to walk away if certain items are not in the agreement.  Ironic, huh?  This raised an interesting issue in my mind: which is worse, getting an agreement that is imperfect knowing that I will get other things that I want or denying myself this opportunity and continuing to pine for such an arrangement?

I can't answer the question.  Neither path is one I would choose for myself.  I would prefer a better agreement (hence the list of changes) but that is out of my hands.  It is up to the publisher now.  So I'm holding my breath and waiting.  If I don't hear break in a week I will send a reminder mail.  And if I don't have an answer by the end of the month, I will pass on the deal because I can't wait forever.  There are other publishers, after all.

So we'll see.  Wish me luck which in this case I'm not sure which side that puts me on but luck is always are good thing.  As I've noted earlier, sometimes luck is your best plan.  This may well be one of those times.  We'll see.

In a Holding Pattern

I'm in a holding pattern for the moment.  I've given my comments about my publishing contract to the publisher and now I'm waiting to see the revisions.  In the meantime, I've been making progress on Book 3.  That work has been slow but steady.  The story is now turning to the main conflict and resolution so there's good stuff ahead it's just sometimes it is hard to find the right path to it.

And in the meantime, I've been giving a lot of thought to Book 2 and my entire fantasy series.  I need to make sure that Book 2 is as good, or better, than Book 1 and I'm not sure that is so.  At the same time, I've been reviewing the plot of Book 4 and found some issues with it.  I'm trying to sort them out on at a high level but so far, I'm stuck.  That's not a real concern.  Handling plots is nothing new to me.

Originally, the end of Book 4 was going to be an extended chase scene.  But I sorta did that in Book 1 and there are logistically problems with that approach.  So if I don't so that, I could have the characters find information they need to follow up on to achieve their goal.  So could have one of the characters use magic to point the way.  I'm still ruminating on these options.

Clearly I won't need to make a decision on this any time soon.  I expect to work on Book 3 through March (hopefully the draft will be complete by then) and see what revisions the publisher may want on Book 1.  Once all the revisions are complete, I can begin polishing Book 2 and getting it ready to go out into the world.  That should fill this year.  So I might start work on Book 4 next year.  It is really hard to say.  We'll see.  Whenever I start, I will nail down the plot then.

Other than that, I entered a short story in a writing contest and I have some poems being published next week I believe.

Time now to roll up sleeves and see what kind of mischief I can get into today.  Sometimes I think that if my characters were people, they'd really hate me.  I complicate their lives so.

I Need a Crystal Ball

Occasionally I reach points in my life where I need a crystal ball to see if a given decision will turn out well.  That was true when I bought my house, when I got married, and when I start a new job.  In all these cases, I just want a glimpse of the future for reassurance, to know I'm on the right path, and to get a heads up about problems so I can deal with them.  Of course, that never happens and 95% of the things that could go wrong often don't; instead I get tripped up by the things I'm wasn't expecting, which argues for that quick glance with the crystal ball.

But now I've reach such a point again.  The question this time is this:  Do I sign the publishing contract presented to me?  I'm thinking yes, but I've not decided for certain.  Not yet.  I will soon so let's go over the pros and cons.

If I don't sign, I go back to the world of self-publishing and hope someone takes notice of me.  I can continue to submit my work for publication with other small presses, but if I'm going to do that, why not just take the deal in my hand?

A writer friend of mine argues that the whole tend of publishing is going to the self-publishing model, that small presses are irrelevant, and that this is good because I keep my rights with me and receive more of the share of the revenue.  My response is what revenue?  I've got lots of folks who have done free downloads of the samples but no one has purchased a copy of anything for months.  So people are interested but they have not purchased anything.  And they are not likely to if they've got a big pile of material to read.

I would also argue that small presses are not irrelevant.  They can help with book signings, ads, and artwork (all of which I need help with).  More importantly, depending on the small press, they can help create versions of the story in foreign languages or for the blind; a large print version, an audio book, and other versions of the story are also possible.  Without the small press, there is no way I could do all that unless I stop writing, which I don't want to do.  And in fact, because they do all that, I can keep writing and finish the next books in the series.

But that doesn't mean I shouldn't be careful here.  I don't really know the publisher who has offered me a deal and if I make a mistake here I will regret it for a very long time.  So I will be showing the agreement to a lawyer to see what he will charge and (assuming I can afford it) to have certain legal questions answered.

All this would be unnecessary, of course, if I could just get that friggin crystal ball.  But that's not going to happen so I will just do the best I can and hope I make the right decision.  Wish me luck.  I'm going to need it, I think.

Going Off Course

Does this happen you: you have an idea for a scene, some dialogue, a blog post.  You know how it will go; you run it through your mind repeatedly to be sure.  Then you sit down to capture and it come out completely different from your original idea.

This happens to me a lot.  I can ideas while sleeping or half awake and by the time I write them down I'm way off course.  I assume that's the nature of writing, that in my half conscious state I fail to fully take into account all sides or views and when I do changes are inevitable.

I guess this is one more sign that we live in an imperfect world and it is too bad because very often the original idea is awesome, get not feasible in the context I am using it.

I suppose I could change the context; that would give me even more to write, however, and I'm full up at the moment.

Hell, I can bare get this post written before dashing off to something else.

Friday are like that often; it's as if the week were saving up all its tasks and then at the end of the week dumps them all on me to complete all at once.

Oh well.  Gotta go.  Keep writing everyone.