I am at a crossroads as I realize that no matter how hard I work on my novels and writing, no matter how good my work is compared to others, I can still fail to get published or recognized for the quality of my work because the nature of writing and publishing is subjective. I have to rely on others (a selective few to be sure) and hope they have an eye for talent. I have to persevere regardless of criticism and comment hope by the grace of God or act of nature that I will be rewarded. And even that's not really enough. Editors and publishers take no risks. None. So unless I am exactly what they want I am stopped before I start.
I think that is why I decided I should self-publish my work and let the public decide. Of course, that path is equally hard since I have self-promote too. I think that is also why I am serious thinking that this business is for the birds. I don't mind working hard so long as I receive the reward that comes with it. Heaven knows I am not one to shirk from a task regardless of the effort but the task has to completable. Why should I run at windmills if there is no chance for success?
Writers who succeed need support and encouragement. I've had neither so far. Only a belief in myself that I can do this, that my ideas are good, and my writing skills sound. But that's not enough it seems and now my belief in myself is waning. I don't know if I want to go on or if I should. I certainly don't want to delude myself that I can write if I can't. On the other hand, I don't want to give up if I'm nearly at the goal line. I certainly seem to have underestimated the amount of work and effort needed to succeed here.
So what do I do? I don't know. Obviously, my novels are going nowhere until I can decide to go on or quit. Perhaps a few short stories as trial balloon are needed to verify I can write to the level required. Blogging and audience building also seem to be the order of the day.
As a writer friend tells me, 'One step at a time.' I now understand why he says this.
Then maybe I'll have enough information to know what to do. We'll see.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
That said, it seems to me that I need to be novelist, marketing guru, artist, web designer, cinematographer, podcaster, blogger, and several other roles, just to push get my work seen. Seems like an uphill climb to me. Seems like I'll never have time for the next book if I want to promote the first one.
I am a web designer and I've can probably create a podcast of the work too. There are several other things I can do easily. But art work for the web site and the marketing spin are not among them. I'll need assistance there. Guess it's time to network.